I don't care

I wonder why I have to tell myself that a lot. Shouldn't it be true the first time? Ah well, life goes on right? Life is a very cruel game to play. I guess I'll just shut my eyes and ears as long as I can. Maybe if I keep that up, I'll finally convince myself that I don't really care. Maybe then I could stop lying about it to myself. Because I know a part of me cares. Sometimes, I wish I could just make her shut up.

Oh hello there. It's been a long time since I last drew you. Still getting hurt a lot I see. I wonder when the pain will end?